hey again....... what is it that I want to share today...... well lets see, its the month of march my second best (best being October/November....)well the wind these days are fresh , crisp and fragrant.. I see palash tress all around me posing magnificently with the red flowers crowned on the leafless, bare branches.... who said they are useless.... i see them as really brave fellows... They’ll remain leafless in spring season but still qualify as one of the most beautiful trees.
I like this month partly because this is the month when our final exams were over.. we had all the time to ourselves... I think we wouldn't be the person we are if it hadn't been for our childhood days.. .. The way we bonded with the nature...The way we felt when we first touched a butterfly...Watching earthworms scroll.... Plucking rose.. eating mulberry's , Guava, grapes fresh and unwashed....Playing those crazy games...
The smell still lingers and when the month is March it becomes nostalgic.... I want to go out and breathe as much air as i possibly can...
I still remember the way I used to stand on my roof tops around dusk, I used to look up and watch few bright stars and then go round and round and round... my head then used to become so light that it seemed as if I was floating... I used to giggle uncontrollably… The feeling seeping in slowly to each and every muscle…. awareness hundred percent. nothing else used to exist nothing else mattered it was just me and the stars and that feeling of completeness....
A few years back I used to actually laugh at people who talked this way.... but now I understand what they missed
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
Sunday, March 9, 2008
The Introspection day
I am ashamed to admit this… really….
1. I live in the past…..
2. I always yearn for things I don’t have
And I am desperate to get rid of these habits… and I need to be taught (well ya… we are used to be spoon fed, at least I have lost the wisdom though I am intelligent (ego!!!!… it wont ever leave me alone……) but intellect seems to be missing… everything is learnt nothing comes from within even though I try really hard to listen and there is a voice talking to me from deep within but I am always in doubt.. I don’t know for sure whether I can trust it or not...) Anyways these are two habits I desperately need to get rid of. And I wish I could be more carefree towards life… I wish I could be more naïve……… there are so many things we take for granted that we don’t say WOW to nature’s most basic yet most complex, essential gifts……anyways I need to re- discover myself I say discover and not invent because I know everything is in place its just that I am not aware of its existence….Most of all I want to be someone who is satisfied with what is offered… I want to be one who accepts things as they come and yep though I know all these things I still think that I am one of the most credulous and venerable being………. and you guessed it right its Monday again ;-) ….. it has become ‘The Introspection day’ or what?????
1. I live in the past…..
2. I always yearn for things I don’t have
And I am desperate to get rid of these habits… and I need to be taught (well ya… we are used to be spoon fed, at least I have lost the wisdom though I am intelligent (ego!!!!… it wont ever leave me alone……) but intellect seems to be missing… everything is learnt nothing comes from within even though I try really hard to listen and there is a voice talking to me from deep within but I am always in doubt.. I don’t know for sure whether I can trust it or not...) Anyways these are two habits I desperately need to get rid of. And I wish I could be more carefree towards life… I wish I could be more naïve……… there are so many things we take for granted that we don’t say WOW to nature’s most basic yet most complex, essential gifts……anyways I need to re- discover myself I say discover and not invent because I know everything is in place its just that I am not aware of its existence….Most of all I want to be someone who is satisfied with what is offered… I want to be one who accepts things as they come and yep though I know all these things I still think that I am one of the most credulous and venerable being………. and you guessed it right its Monday again ;-) ….. it has become ‘The Introspection day’ or what?????
Monday, March 3, 2008
The Monday Syndrome
Well hi again….. TV , Blog , Poetry , Gardening , Reading are my escapes from the reality… which ashamed as I might be , is something I still am not able to digest…..
I have felt trapped ever since I grew up……. I am trapped amongst people with rigid mindset; they having there own definition of cool and un cool look down upon people who fail to understand their categorization…… I am trapped in the concrete hell read Delhi while lush green rain forests wait un explored….,I am trapped in a society where a 24 year olds are shown the harder way to live where getting bigger and fatter pay packages in the only acceptable aim….., I am trapped in a confused mind …… things I grew up dreaming about have slowly started loosing their meaning…. There are still few unfulfilled dreams and many desires…. But then I know living to see your dreams come true is only a vicious circle…come what may they’ll never cease to exist……I am trapped in a tired body ;-0 waiting to grow wings…………………. Anyways who cares…Bye for now…..I wonder again why is it always Monday when I look at life this way…. I am sure it isn’t half as bad as I think….. time to look out for a new escape.
I have felt trapped ever since I grew up……. I am trapped amongst people with rigid mindset; they having there own definition of cool and un cool look down upon people who fail to understand their categorization…… I am trapped in the concrete hell read Delhi while lush green rain forests wait un explored….,I am trapped in a society where a 24 year olds are shown the harder way to live where getting bigger and fatter pay packages in the only acceptable aim….., I am trapped in a confused mind …… things I grew up dreaming about have slowly started loosing their meaning…. There are still few unfulfilled dreams and many desires…. But then I know living to see your dreams come true is only a vicious circle…come what may they’ll never cease to exist……I am trapped in a tired body ;-0 waiting to grow wings…………………. Anyways who cares…Bye for now…..I wonder again why is it always Monday when I look at life this way…. I am sure it isn’t half as bad as I think….. time to look out for a new escape.
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